The discovery of my
metaphysical world
All got under way in the house where I was born and had lived until
my teen years. In here I had realized my first paintings just when
the house was left behind. The silence and the emptiness of the
house cleared out of the furniture reminded me of the amazing and
secret experiences of my childhood, which led me to the discovery of
their hidden meaning. Here follows a short description of the places
from which I’ve drown on my strongest sensations:
THE WALLED-UP GARDEN – It dealed with
a sort of outdoor museum close to the Malatestian Cathedral, made up
of the crocks of the bombing of an ancient franciscan Church on a
side, while the rest was surrounded by old and high walls. We could
enter only by climbing over the walls. Inside it, there were
gathered marble ruins, gravestones, Roman capitals, columns and
trunks of the sculptures half-hidden by the ivy and other climbers
primping the surroundings.
I still have strong memory of certain
dreams I had when I was a child and set up in this place which
filled of funny creatures such as mythological animals and silent
statues trying to hide themselves from my look.
THE OLD SEMINARY – The rooms and the
corridors of the old abandoned seminary were a fantastic place
really attractive for all my feelings. I drived into a sort of
timeless dimension, where objects and furniture triumphed in glory,
as free from the ordinary for which they had been created. The lines,
colours and the materials which they were composed, such as golden
or varnished wood, the rare marbles, the giant candalabras,
blackboards and the survey maps, sparkled throughout a play of
lights and shadows, ray of sun filtered through the barks and the
windows and amplified by the oxidized mirrors hang up the walls. In
the same time we could catch a glimpse of old dusty statues in
painted wood, like Angels, shepherds or the Wise Men accompanying my
exciting adventures with dreamy glance.
THE RUINS OF THE ROMAN AMPHITHEATRE –
This place entirely isolated from the city, as it was hidden by a
thick park full of trees, abstracted myself from the age I lived.
I managed to rebuild the missing
parts, with fantasy, through the pictures I saw on an old book in my
house: the sculptures on the archs and the watercrafts (it was a
naval amphitheatre) occupied by the gladiators. For certain points
of view, it seemed a labyrinth. From the narrow and long corridors
made up of high walls and without roof, steep staircases getting on
the betterments or coming down the underground, while all around
there was a network of mill-run full of running water surrounding
the boundary walls. The water, coming from a dungeon spring, flew
slowly and quietly while salamanders, funny black amphibian beings
moved amongst aquatic plants.
Close to the amphitheatre there was:
THE OLD DISUSED RAILWAY – In a large
waste of rusty rails half-hidden by weeds, the Old Steam Engines
stayed proudly and motionless erected, still hooked up their conveys,
made up of freight or passengers cars, like real shelters for
children games. The wide rail park surrounded by the medieval walls
on a side, and by the Amphitheatre on the other side, represented an
incredible and unhoped place to the heart of a child who managed to
move those trains by his own fantasy’s power, fed up by my first
childhood’s memories when the railway was still working and where I
could see those small and smoky conveys sliding away slowly from the
boundaries of the garden of my grandmother’s house.
Those and other similar places have
been the sources of my first metaphysical impressions. These
experiences and sensations were really like a bolt from the blue in
that fateful springtime day in 1971, when for the first time in my
life I was in front of a De Chirico’s painting. In his paintings’
parts and appearances I found all I had been seeing and feeling in
all the course of my life. The discovery of his paintings was to me
like seeing for the first time my soul’s invisible secrets decoded
by images. In the course of my life I’ve been keeping on searching
the hidden side of the reality with its places full of feelings such
as those of my first years from which I took several inspirations
described in some drawings and paintings I realized in a second time.
Amongst them I quote about one in
particular, the most important one to me:
THE VERDI THEATRE IN FERRARA – Closed
for 33 years indeed, that place I entered in some way revealed
itself as a horrifying setting worthy of a Hitchcock’s play: big
black birds flew in a circle, cawing inside the wide theatre’s hall,
under the dome made up of broken glasses from which the birds went
tinto, while, on the stage half-enlightened by an yellowish dusty
and feeble light, we could catch a glimpse of furniture and objects
piled up by chance and playing a sort f silent show as they were
lively ghosts.
My incredible adventure has filled up
my “feelings store”, my secret file from which I keep on drawing on
my inspirations for giving life to new metaphysical works. |